~Lost In A Crowded Room~

I want to be here and
enjoy my time.
I want to throw my pleasures
across the room.
I come so close and then
draw back.
Knowing pain would be worse
if I shared it with the world.
My unrestrained thoughts
float about my opened mind.
Wonder for unexplored planes
yield to my search.
I think and then don’t,
and ponder and not.
Out-pouring and numbness swing
in my soul like a pendulum.
And still, I am lost in a crowded room.

~©Jazzi Ryan Ranes~